Episode #20: Jack of All Babes or Master of One?

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Episode #20: Jack of All Babes or Master of One?

that feminine urge to try everything

Kaylee Faria

Mar 13, 2025

Episode 20: Jack of All Babes or Master of One?

Welcome Babes to the 20th episode of the Babe That’s Bonkers Podcast! I’m your host, Kaylee Faria, and I’m thrilled to take you on this bonkers journey into my world.

In this episode, I’ll share a little bit about walking the path of a jack of all trades—or being a master of one—as well as the usual planetary updates , and a story from a life changing moment for me this last week. So, grab your favorite drink, get cozy, and let’s get chatty ;)

“Hey babes, welcome back to another episode of the Babe That's Bonkers podcast.

I'm your host Kaylee, so happy to be here, so happy to have you here.

Today, we are going to have a bit of a more low-key, chill, intuitive, chit-chatty episode.

There are going to be some, like, structural aspects to it, you know, our usual, whatever, but...

I didn't feel like doing a pagan holiday episode fully, but we will get into that today with St. Patrick's Day coming up.

And even though there's also, like, a lot of stuff going on with the stars, you know, I still wanted to take a bit longer of a break before fully deep diving into another, like, Astrology 101 episode.

I feel like let's just absorb everything that's happening, and then we can do our learning later.

Like, let's not get too overwhelming and whatever.

And I just crave variety, which we will also be talking about today.

So I just want to switch things up a little bit.

There are some concepts I have been thinking of quite a bit recently that I would just like to share with you.

So today, we are going to be talking about being a Jack of All Trades or a Master of One.

I don't think there's a wrong answer, but they are two different paths to take in life.

This is a concept that I think of quite often as someone who craves variety.

Like I said, you know, I crave variety when it comes to how I spend my time, the different activities I'm doing, learning about.

It's kind of like the basis of today, but it also shows up in, you know, the food I like to eat, drinks I like to drink, beverages I like to drink.

I guess you could say that would be more proper perhaps.

I also feel a bit like a wanderer, I guess you could say.

I definitely also crave variety in like the environment that I'm in, which is ironic because I also have some homebody tendencies.

I don't know, but I like to move my home perhaps.

Like I have my things that make me feel homey, but I don't feel like attached to a specific place, if that makes sense.

Like home's where the hardest type thing.

But the area of life that I have most been contemplating this concept in is like my career, especially as an artist.

You know, like I've said, I kind of say like fuck having a niche.

Like I think that is, you know, such a Debbie Downer way to look at things.

Like there's just so much opportunity, so many things to experience, so many things to learn about.

I just don't want to limit myself, but that also makes me feel quite overwhelmed because I feel like I don't have enough time to learn how to do all the things that I want to do.

And I try to take it like one step at a time, but I also am not great at like seeing things through.

It's like I'll start a project, and then I instantly want to like start the next project before I fully finish this one.

It's just come to like a stopping point and coming back to those things, like I've said, is just not my strong suit.

Something I'm working on.

Sometimes I also feel like I'm going to like ruin my paintings when I come back to it, like I made great progress and it might not be finished.

But if I come back to it, maybe I'll make it worse type thing, which I very much need to let go of the perfectionist in me.

Sometimes I just need to fuck up, you know?

But with this existential crisis regarding, you know, how to spend my time, how to learn, how to develop my skills, what to focus on.

I was doing some googling, some researching, just comparing the different paths of being a Jack of All Trades and a Master of One.

I also thought the little title was such a funny little play on words like Jack of All Babes.

I hope that made sense.

To me, it did.

I had some other ones that I tried out and that one just made me the happiest.

And I wanted to use it even if other people didn't get it.

So there's my explanation in case you didn't.

And now I'll move on to the research googling I did.

So a way that they kind of compared these two different paths is if you're a Jack of All trades, you're more of a generalist, you know, a little bit of everything, and your time is divided on multiple skills, learning multiple skills, honing different skills.

It kind of takes away from the opportunity to develop like expertise or it takes longer to fully develop those skills and you know, get to these more advanced levels because your attention is divided at the end of the day.

So where I feel like I'm at in my journey is I feel like, you know, I've spent a good chunk of time working on photography, a little bit less time than that working on painting, even less time than that working on podcasting, and I'm still taking baby steps in all of them at the same time.

And I really want to be successful in all these categories.

I want to give them all my attention.

And then there's also like my other hobbies that includes like cooking and gardening and stuff like that.

But I have kind of been neglecting these days.

Cooking and I have just taken not like a breakup, but just like a step back.

Like I was cooking a lot of meals from scratch very, very frequently.

That is my preference, but it also is very expensive in today's economy.

And it also takes a lot of time and a lot of energy.

So that's kind of one of the areas of my life that's been compromised recently.

And gardening, yeah, I have some house plans, but I don't have like a garden the way I would love to have a garden.

And I would really love to get that going this spring, but my landlord has indeed not replaced the roof on me greenhouse.

So there's also that, that's like the ideal space to utilize at my like rental.

And yeah, under construction, I guess you could say perhaps.

But I have all these categories, and especially with like my painting, there's even more like subcategories with like different mediums and stuff.

Like I'm pretty familiar with acrylics, trying to get more familiar with oils and chalks and pastels and watercolors and other things, because they all just excite me so, so much.

I've also been doing like some collaging type things, and would love to scrapbook, because I have all these pictures and thing-a-bobs that could turn into a really beautiful memory book type of thing.

But just where is the time?

That's where I feel like the struggle is when it comes to being a Jack of All Trades is like you have to be patient because the progress is slower because your attention is divided.

That's kind of like the point I was coming to when I was really thinking about this whole concept and it just shows that there is pros and cons to it all.

Yes, you do get to experience a lot of different things, but the work and the time that you have to put in to get deep into these things to more intermediate and advanced levels, it really is the fruit of your labors.

I do think that there's a cool thing that happens with this whenever you're working on different skills as you see how they can overlap and it allows you to just view things from a unique perspective and be a pretty good problem solver at times.

I think that's a pretty common attribute to these types of folks.

An artist and a very well-known Jack of All Trades that I'm always inspired by.

I feel like my abstract styles of art remind me of looking at theirs as a kid, especially with my more swirly psychedelic type paintings, because I have a few different subgenre niches, whatever, when it comes to my art portfolio and whatever.

But anywho, the artist that I really admire and I feel like is the epitome of being a Jack of All Trades would be Leonardo da Vinci.

Not only was he an artist, but he was also a mathematician and a scientist and a philosopher, I think.

And there were just like so many different experiments that he worked on, and like problems he worked towards solving.

And you know, the way like people talk about his work and the way that he operated seemed very, very chaotic, which is very much how I feel.

And just the fact that da Vinci dipped his toe into so many different pools and found success in so many different ones and also was met with failure and rejection, which I'm sure led to so much growth on his part and allowed him to, you know, continuously problem solve on other projects type thing.

I don't know, I just find it all very, very inspiring.

And it just it makes me feel like it's possible to not pick a niche.

And it's just a reminder that you can have it all just not at the same time.

That is something that I am constantly trying to like remind myself of, like one of those mental mantras that kind of encourages me to have patience and also appreciate where I'm at in my journey.

Like I can have it all, but not at the same time.

Like right now in my life, I have a few different focuses, but I can only focus on one of them at a time.

And some days, one's going to get more energy than the other.

But, you know, I can try to like balance that if I'd like, or I can really hone in on one for a while and then take a step back and really hone in on another.

Like there are a lot of different ways to be a Jack of All Trades.

I think part of it is just like finding what works for you and like trying different ways of like balancing out all of your many different interests and like skills that you would like to build up.

And now on the flip side, we have the Master of One.

So they're kind of more of a specialist, the expert when it comes to certain different skills.

They have a more complete, well-rounded understanding of kind of those more like niche concepts.

And most of their time is spent focused on, you know, honing in their craft.

And, you know, it allows them to get deeper than other people who are perhaps, you know, distracted by other things.

But it also takes away from their opportunity to develop additional skills, you know, when they're so focused on this one thing.

So again, it's the give and take the pros and cons.

There is no better or worse, only different.

And the one thing that I think is really, really beautiful about both of these paths is they're both centered around learning and growing.

Like, down each of these paths, you know, you have to keep on walking.

Otherwise, you know, you can't become a master if you don't keep learning, if you don't keep practicing, if you don't keep, you know, doing the trial and error to like get to that place of like mastery and expertise.

And also, you know, if you want to be a jack of all trades, you have to put in the effort to learn all of these different skills and navigate the best way to balance them.

So I guess that also leaves a third path in life, which is just to do neither and not really encourage learning or growth, just allowing for like stagnancy to take over, I guess.

And, you know, that does bring along another question, I think, which I do not necessarily have an answer to, but can you move from path to path to path in different seasons of life?

I think, I think that is definitely very possible, in my opinion.

You know, I don't know if you can truly achieve the same mastery, if you were kind of like spending a season of life focusing on multiple different skills and then a season of life, you know, where you're not really focusing on anything.

You have to take that like mental break or whatever and then you jump back into like the mastery thing.

You pick one of those skills, the one that fulfilled you the most, the one that you enjoyed the most, the one that you were kind of best at and more naturally talented at anyways, and you continue to hone in that skill.

I'm sure you can definitely get to an incredibly advanced and like expert level in regard to it.

But if you compare that to some of the like super humans that have existed who, you know, don't really stray from their path, don't really allow themselves to get distracted, like how does that, how does that type of mastery compare?

You know what I mean?

And I'm not trying to be like a downer or anything.

I'm simply just, you know, curious in these thoughts.

Like, is that what makes a prodigy a true genius versus just like a regular person who works very hard and does their best and can still achieve amazing things?

But just like lacks that special je ne sais quoi or whatever they call it, you know?

And if that is the path that you are on, like do you still reach that same level of fulfillment because you never gave yourself any breaks or a room to breathe or time to explore other things?

You know what I mean?

So I think that brings the whole concept of like Jack of All Trades, Master of One, to a conclusion to just like life is life and ever changing.

And I do think that you can like wake up at any moment and decide to walk a new path and try something different and new and whatnot.

And as long as you're walking, you're making progress.

And I have just really enjoyed this conversation.

I'm not sure what it is about this concept that just like really sparks something inside me.

Like I equally get excited and really, really stressed.

Like on one hand, I feel like I do not have enough time.

I have not done enough.

Like I am so, so behind.

And I think that's just like the being a young girl in her 20s type thing playing in.

And I do have to come around myself.

Like I have so, so much time.

But it does also excite me because it reminds me that it just, it is possible to experience so many different things in your lifetime and learn so many different things.

Like I can learn all the different forms of art.

I can be a painter.

I can be a potter.

I can be a sculptor.

I can be a photographer.

The whole shebang, you know, there's nothing, nothing to stop me from doing that.

I can also be a writer if I want to.

I'm already a podcaster.

Here we are doing the dang thing.

And that gets me so, so excited.

And it really helps me combat the stressful feelings I feel in regards to like being behind.

And it reminds me that like eventually my time will come to like really hone in my gardening, my travels, my cooking skills and all that jazz.

I just just have to be patient with myself.

So if you ever feel like that, just remember your time will come.

Be patient, take care of yourself the best you can.

And there are no wrong choices, just different ones.

And you're going to learn from all of them and it's gonna be really cool and exciting no matter what.

So just have some fun.

That's something I've also been really trying to focus on and bring to like the forefront of my mind is like, in this new season of life, I'm about to have a birthday.

So I'm very much thinking of like the kind of energy I want to bring into my new year, I guess.

And two things are having fun and embracing just like calm energy.

Like I want to have fun, but I also just like, I want to be chill.

Like I don't want things to stress me out.

Like I just want things to roll off me.

I want to just take things as they come, handle things one step at a time, and just be calm, be at peace with just whatever the universe brings.

You know, life can be stressful sometimes, and those things are out of my control.

And that's just something I'm constantly trying to remind myself of.

And I feel like whenever I make time to have fun, you know, it distracts the brain from all those anxious, intrusive thoughts, you know?

And that's what I've got for the little girlie chats today.

Or I don't even, I shouldn't say girlie chats.

Anyone could enjoy these chats, but I'm a girlie and I'm chatting, so that's where that's coming from.

But we're going to move on to chit chat about the next pagan holiday.

It's not going to take up the entirety of the episode because it is just kind of like a blurb, a fun little interesting story, something to ponder on kind of thing.

But St.

Patrick's Day is coming up, and I'm sure you could guess that St.

Patrick is a Catholic saint, and this happened to be his feast day.

He's known as the patron saint of Ireland and is associated with like driving the snakes out of Ireland, which the busy pagan blog informed me is actually a myth.

Ireland natively never had snakes that needed to be like, chewed off away from the island.

And it's actually a metaphor, an ancient story for like pagan people and beliefs.

So in the witchy pagan communities, they call St.

Patrick's Day, All Snakes Day, as kind of like an homage to the original ancient traditions that existed in Ireland before Catholicism moved in and kind of drove out all of those people, at least the like public, do you know, celebrations, interpretations of those religions outside of Catholicism, Christianity?

A lot of the history I have also read regarding just like all of the different Pagan celebrations and spiritual practices and ancient rituals and all that jazz.

A lot of it does mention the ancient Celtic people, so it would make sense that this would kind of, you know, hit home a little bit differently for the native people of Ireland.

And obviously, you know, present day, St.

Patrick's Day has evolved into its own thing entirely.

Like we have our own communities that have their own celebrations.

Like by no means do I think that because these pagan holidays exist, that you shouldn't celebrate regular holidays in today's society.

I just think it's interesting to learn about this history and like the origin story of everything.

You know, I'm not trying to yuck anybody's yum, just trying to learn a thing or two, share a little bit, see what you kind of think.

And you know, when I think about it, like St.

Patrick's Day, at least in my hometown, like we always had a parade.

It's something I participated in whenever I was in the marching band in middle school and high school and stuff like that.

And just like the festivity of like dressing up and all green and a lot of people, now that we're adults, you know, going out and drinking, like it is a fun thing to do culturally within your community.

And you know, I don't think that like an achy history because some people who existed once upon a time, did some not cool things, should take anything away from that.

But I do think it is important to learn about history and things that have happened.

So, you know, we don't over glorify things that aren't accurate, if that makes sense.

You know what I mean?

But if you are looking for ways to celebrate all snakes day, you can check out the Busy Pagans blog, I'll link up below, pre-oosh.

And essentially just gives out a bunch of different, like snake themed crafts and activities to do, which could be fun.

I do feel like it's extra appropriate this year with a whole Chinese Zodiac being the year of the snake and all that jazz, you know, and snakes are also just cool in general, very symbolic, very transformative, you know.

See, that's what I've got for the pagan holiday.

It wasn't a super in-depth blog post, so not a ton to share in that department, but I did want to mention it because I did find it quite interesting.

And we're just embracing today's theme of being a Jack of All Trades, and we're just should chat about a little bit of everything today.

You know, a little bit of like fun existential crisis chats because we're human, and then some pagan holiday stuff because we're witchy girls, some astrology stuff because we're witchy girls, some life updates because, you know, who doesn't want to know what's going on in my life and what I'm eating, and all of that jazz, obviously, and our tarot reading because we're witchy girls.

Yeah.

And I don't know why I'm recapping a little table of contents, but I just, I feel like it fits the Jack of All Trades vibes, you know?

So we're going to jump in to our astrology thoughts for the day.

There's a lot going on with the planets up in the stars and all that jazz.

So today, I'm actually going to start off by reading from my astrology app.

I will, I said I would link it.

I'm pretty sure I forgot.

No, I know for a fact I forgot.

And we'll see if I can figure out how to do that this time because it's an app, but it's just called Numerology and Astrology.

And if you can see the camera, where is that?

There's like, it's green and gold.

And just has like a few little taps for Numerology, Astrology, Terror reading, and stuff like that.

So it is very informative.

Like I mentioned before, it does have ads, which is kind of frustrating to like read more in-depth stuff.

And there's like a paid version to read the most in-depth stuff.

But I feel like using this free app and also the Cosmic Lattes free information, I'm able to put like two and two together because I'm just not at a point in my life where I am spending money on these subscriptions.

Perhaps one day soon, if the podcast makes me any money.

But until then, we are living the poor girl's astrology life.

Anyhow, to actually get into things, the moon, we're having a full moon coming up, perhaps whenever this episode is out.

I do think we'll get into that in a second.

Hold on.

I'm putting the cart before the horse saying three sentences at the same time.

The moon.

Today, the moon enters Virgo while the sun conjoins Saturn in Pisces.

Indulging in fantasies and other delusions becomes nearly impossible to do, but your reality check doesn't have to be soul crushing.

Strike a balance between being whimsical and being realistic.

You can hope for the best while still managing your expectations.

So with the full moon coming up, you know, we have kind of like the cycle coming to fruition.

You know, the new moon is a new beginning.

The full moon completion of the cycle is how I remember it.

And if you want to know what I mean when I'm talking about the moon being in Virgo or the sun being in Pisces, you can reference our Astrology 101 episode that goes through all the different zodiac signs and that kind of brings to light the different energies that are a little bit heavier on those days, different themes that are a little bit more prominent that just like reflect those signs, you know?

And it really just feels like a lot is going on with the moon and the sun both moving into more distinct positions at the same time, in addition to what we'll be getting into next, which is the different retrogrades that are happening.

So I think we talked about how Venus was doing its retrograde into Aries.

Mercury had moved into Aries as well.

Now Mercury is also retrograding.

So we have a dual retrograde happening with those two planets, which we will be deep diving into in a couple of weeks.

It'll be a very, very fun time.

And I feel like when we finally get around to that episode, we're going to have an aha moment with all this retrograde chit chat.

But bear with me for now.

With a little sneak peek, this is the preview precursor.

Still important information.

So going back to Saturn also being in Pisces with the sun moving into Pisces, that's called Cassini whenever a planet is like moving in conjunction with the sun.

So and that's happening today, March 12, as I'm recording this.

And with it being in Pisces, it's kind of that breakthrough moment with something that you've been putting emotional labor into.

Remember Pisces is known for being more emotionally sensitive and intuitive.

So any area in life where you've been exuding more emotional energy is probably going to have a little bit of a breakthrough moment.

And I feel like it's perfect timing, honestly, to have that breakthrough moment, because with Venus being in retrograde, it's been shining a light on all of our relationships, you know, with ourselves, you know, our self-worth and all that jazz, and also with our friends, family, partners.

And again, that's not necessarily a bad thing.

We're just being like reflected, like what is important to us, what matters for us, what aligns with us on our journeys.

And it's been so interesting, like just like my personal experience with that at the moment, I feel like is very accurate to like the way the Venus retrograde has been described.

And I don't know if that's placebo affecting myself, but I feel like it happens.

And then I learn about it.

I'm like, oh, that makes sense versus like, I read about it and then my life happens.

And I'm like subconsciously making it happen that way.

That's like one of my biggest concerns being like an astrology girl.

I feel like that's why people get like a little bit crazy with it is they start like reading into it as like assumptions and rule and law and like what's actually happening rather than like a moment to be like, oh, there are just like other energies in the universe at play like I have, you know, less control over certain things, but I have control over these things.

So I should focus on them and, you know, regardless, like it doesn't hurt to just take a second, look at the relationships in your life and determine, you know, where you could improve upon, where things could change for the better kind of thing, you know, but it's also been interesting that I've had a few different friends whose situationships and like friendships and relationships that have kind of fallen off over the past few weeks.

And, you know, it fits the theme.

And I know I've said a lot already, but I'm not done yet because on Friday this week, tomorrow for you listeners who are here on day one first Friday getting a sneak peek, so they're they're in the know, but we're gonna have a bit of a lunar eclipse, which is super duper exciting.

If you've never watched an eclipse, a little trick I've done is, you know, A, don't stare at it unless you have like welding goggles on.

That is very, very bad for your eyes.

So if you don't happen to have welding goggles, you can get a piece of paper and like make a little circle in it and then with its like shadow, you can see the movement of like the eclipse.

And I don't remember if I did that with a solar eclipse or a lunar eclipse.

So maybe it'll work.

Maybe it won't do some Googling before you take my word for it.

That's just a little something, something you can check out if you want to do something for this lunar eclipse.

So the lunar eclipse has to happen whenever the moon is full, right?

So it really is kind of that like ultra heightened full moon, full circle moment where things just kind of like come to fruition.

You kind of either realize like, aha, this is something that needs to change.

I've outgrown this situation.

Or you're finally getting to like reap the rewards of hard work.

And I guess when it comes to the eclipses, it has to do with like the movement from like node to node.

And it's a part of like a six month cycle.

So thinking back to like what was happening six months ago, what were we working on?

And, you know, this is kind of that full circle moment that we're getting to, not just like the monthly cycle, but you know, the like bigger picture.

And this eclipse is happening near Virgo and the south node.

So the south node is kind of a representation of the past.

So that's kind of why these themes of like outgrowing, moving on, full circledness.

That's not really a word, but that's why those themes are like ever present at this time.

And I feel like that definitely directly plays into what continues on March 15th.

So maybe it started and it stops.

I'm not entirely sure of the specific pattern of these retrogrades.

I just know that the retrograde itself is that opposite movement to its normal movement.

But Mercury continues its retrograde through Aries on the 15th.

And as a sneak peek, I think I've heard that Mercury is a planet that represents the theme of like communication.

So that's kind of where these like short tempered themes are kind of coming from, you know, just like impulsively spitting out words, speaking your mind.

Speak your mind can be a great thing sometimes, but sometimes also not, if you don't really think about it beforehand.

And that's the danger of the communication planet moving into the hot headed Aries zone.

And with all the movements with around the south node as well, it definitely prompts discussions of the past.

So it's a great time to reflect and press pause, you know, with everyone feeling the urge to speak their mind, it can become very confusing just having so much happening at once.

So there might be misunderstandings, it might feel like a setback or a delay, but just like, be patient with yourself, you know, and being conscious of this, you know, maybe you can plan something that's, you know, like a little bit more of a lone time or just something like chill that might not like trigger these like hot headed conversations, you know, whatever relationships might be feeling most volatile at this time, and maybe just like, give it a break for a moment.

And that is all for today's astrology thoughts.

I think that's a good place to take pause.

You know, that was a lot.

There's a lot going on, but I feel like the themes are, you know, they stack on one another.

Well, they collaborate in a way that makes sense.

I feel like I'm not wording myself very well these days.

Come on, Mercury, planet of communication, get on my side.

You know, actually, I was at work yesterday and someone else was also having trouble with their words.

So sometimes, you just get a little bit tongue-tied and that's okay, that's how the cookie crumbles.

But yeah, that's all for astrology thoughts for today.

There will be a lot more coming throughout the rest of March.

Don't think that things are gonna chill out anytime soon.

The planets have other plans.

But now we finally made it to the life update portion of today's episode.

I've had an interesting week to, to say the least.

This necklace of mine that I'm wearing is a runaway.

There have been multiple times where I have lost this necklace.

I don't even necessarily remember where I got it.

I feel like I got it during like spring break whenever I was in high school at a little beach shop, but I could absolutely be wrong.

Maybe I got it at a thrift store.

No, I think I got it at a maybe I got it at a thrift store by the beach.

Now that I'm I'm saying that I'm I can't tell if I'm remembering or if I'm just like making up an accurate scene because I've just like been to the beach a lot of times growing up in California.

I was very blessed in that way and whatnot.

But I know this necklace did come from the beach.

I'm like 95% sure about that.

So it is very cute.

It is authentic.

It is authentic beach vibes in that way.

I don't know if it's like authentic seashells or not.

But once upon time, whenever I worked at a grow facility and we had to like change into uniforms and stuff like that because it was a dirty job and we don't want our clothes to get dirty and the plants also just like need to be kept sanitary.

Like that's important and whatnot.

I had lost this necklace and I thought I like lost it in the laundry and they had like a company that came and did the laundry service and all that.

So I was just like, fuck, like, shut it, look, necklace is gone, poof, whatever.

And then my now partner actually hints at our story.

We'll share it another day.

But he was working in a room that I was previously working in and he found it and gave it back to me.

And that's now the memory that I have most attached to it or at least that's what it was until now.

Now I have two memories attached to this necklace.

Getting it lost and then also something really, really sweet and amazing happening that day.

So I guess that's a good omen if I'm going to lose this necklace.

And it always finds its way back to me, which I think is really, really special.

But yeah, I was searching the other night.

My partner and I did a late night display run and whatnot because we were just enjoying our time off together.

You know what I mean?

Eating some pizza, watching some Naruto as you do.

And somewhere along the way I had like taken this exact sweater off that day and like put it back on.

And the clasp on this thing is just obviously unreliable.

And at some point it like got loose on me and on my drive, I like touched my neck and it was like gone.

So I assumed I had like lost it in the house because I was like feeling for it.

Didn't see it anywhere.

We came back home, wasn't anywhere in the house.

We checked like the driveway, in the car, all that jazz, no where to be found.

And I was just like, okay, let's just call it a night.

Like it'll come up if it's meant to come up.

And I had the thought, I was like, I wonder if like maybe I lost it in the car and then it like fell out and it's in the parking lot of the Dispo.

And lo and behold, I had to like work the next day and I was like walking through the parking lot and there it was just sitting in the spot, lying in the ground.

And co-workers definitely thought that I was just like being a weirdo picking up trash, like it's a newish job.

And you know, we don't know each other super duper well yet, just kind of like superficially surface level.

And I got to tell them the fun story about like how I lost my necklace and I found it and yadda yadda yadda.

And I got to let them know that I wasn't just like a creepily creepy gross like gremlin and picking up trash off the ground, like not to throw away and be a good human, but to just like have, that would be weird.

You know what I mean?

But it was one of the most beautiful things that happened on that day.

Another beautiful thing that happened on the day that I found this necklace, it was just the best energy.

The best energy was happening for me this morning.

That morning, I happened to make a little Instagram post that day, like one of those like repost prompt things.

And one of the things was like the like most recent song you listen to.

But the most recent thing I had listened to on spot if it wasn't a song, it was an audio book by Amy Mickney, my dream idol hero at this point.

I feel so weird and almost creepy like fan girling, but I feel like I'm not that creepy.

Like I'm honestly a fairly new fan in terms of like deep diving into the content.

Like I barely found her second Instagram that has more focus on her fictional books today.

But I started listening to their podcast a few months ago.

I followed her for like over a year, and I don't know why I'm explaining my journey of like following this person.

But you know, I just, I'm a fan, but in a fun way, not in like a creepy, obsessive way.

You know, and she just comes up on the podcast all the time, because I listen to her podcast most days, because I'm gonna binge it until I get caught up.

You know what I mean?

It's one of the few podcasts that I'm not caught up on, so I do have just like extra episodes.

And especially on podcast days or days where I'm going to be doing creating, their podcast is just an amazing like hype song in a way.

It just like really gets me in the zone and like pump to like make something, which I feel like is exactly what they want.

As some of the biggest supporters of creatives I've ever witnessed on the internet.

So I reposted that I was like listening to her audiobook, and I was just saying like I'll listen to music again once I finish this.

Cuz I am like deep in the story.

Like I finally got a few chapters into like chapter five.

Now I'm at seven or eight or something like that.

So still rocking and rolling.

And the story is just really coming together and especially growing up in like religious background.

I feel like a lot of it makes sense.

It's kind of like old timey vibes, just like historical fiction, romance, kind of.

It is, it's very interesting.

And I'm just, I'm really enjoying it.

And I love that she is the one who is like narrating it because that's just how audiobooks should be.

And I think now that I'm saying that, I mentioned this on last week's episode that I was listening to her new audiobooks.

So there I am just being a repetitive fangirl, but whatever, whatever.

All to say is that whenever I like tagged her in this post that I'm like loving her audiobook, she responded and DM me on Instagram and was just like my heart.

And so I took it as my moment.

I was like, okay, here I have an opportunity to like interact with someone who I very, very much look up to and I'm so, so grateful for on my journey to be an artist.

So I wrote out a little blurb.

I was trying to like not make it too long, but also like say a lot of things that I wanted to say because there's just so many things I would love to share with my here like it's one of those things where it's like if you could have dinner with like, you know, five people, like her and her husband would be two of them that I would pick.

If it could be anybody in the world, like they absolutely would be two of them.

I just feel like they have so much knowledge and whimsy and imagination and love to offer the world.

I would just, I would love to eat dinner with them sometimes in a perfect world where it's more than just a parasolist relationship and we're like actually friends.

And so all to say that I was very much having a fangirl moment.

And she just responded with my name, saying, Kaylee, I am backing you so, so hard.

And that is something that is going to live with me for the rest of my life.

That's why I'm sharing it on my podcast because this is the memoir of my life.

And it's one of the most amazing moments.

The entire day, that day, I was thinking of one of Halsey's lyrics of her songs, where she's like, don't meet your heroes, they're all fucking zeroes.

And I was just thinking, except this time, this time I couldn't possibly have been more grateful.

And it just showed me that I am looking up to the right people, people who are genuine, people who are kind, people who do want to make a difference.

And it was just a really, really cool moment.

And I'm so happy to support her as an artist.

And it was so special to hear her say that she's supporting me as an artist.

And yeah, it was just a super cool moment.

And then I went to work and I found my lost necklace.

And it was, it was an awesome time.

So yeah, that's one of the most amazing days I had this last week.

It was just super, super cool.

Another thing in the food department is I meal prepped some sandwiches for my partner and I.

And I just, I love a good sandwich.

My dad and I used to like buy like baguettes or ciabatta rolls or stuff like that and make like pretty nice sandwiches.

And I feel like to make it a nice sandwich, you really just have to add like lettuce and tomato like just like all the layers, not just meat and cheese, you need, you need some sort of spread.

And I just usually use like mayo mustard, sometimes Dijon mustard, sometimes pesto if I'm feeling fancy, hummus if I don't have a good spread on me, or if I just want to like have some like extra protein in there, I'll do that.

But adding lettuce and tomato really just like makes a sandwich.

And it's just been so nice to have a few on hand.

And I think I made just enough to where like they're not going to be like soggy.

By the time we finish them, or at least like, that's the goal.

And yeah, honestly, that's just the most exciting cooking I've done in the last week.

I also made my like personal classic taco skillet.

I just like throw this together.

I call it taco skillet because I make it in my cast iron skillet, but you could probably make it in like a Dutch oven, a pot, any sort of pan or whatever.

And it's pretty much chili when I really think about it.

But I call it taco skillet because I use taco seasoning.

So I used to use one of those like taco seasoning packets.

Now I buy that stuff in bulk and just like shake it out and whatever.

But that'll be ground beef, black beans, pinto beans, corn and diced potatoes, diced tomatoes.

So I have used leftovers of this and like put it in a baked potato.

And that has been amazing.

But yeah, I'll just like get a bunch of canned food, thing of ground beef, toss it all in a skillet.

Super, super easy, super, super delicious.

It's great with like little chips.

I like the scoops, if you know what I'm talking about.

Those like, yeah, you do.

If not, like whatever tortilla chip, tortillas, baked potato by itself, you know, I'll dress it up with cheese and sour cream and whatnot.

And it is, it's a really good time.

And I feel like, I don't know, it is just like a good switch up from chili.

It's just like same foods, different flavors.

So you get a new experience.

And I'm just, I'm a big fan of just like a meal.

I can throw together with very minimal effort.

So now that I've shared that, I feel like a real chef again, I felt like sandwiches just wasn't enough.

That's just kind of like putting things together, like a puzzle where I feel like, you know, you need like heat for it to be cooking, if that makes sense.

Otherwise you're just like preparing, preparing food, preparing meals, not cooking meals.

I've never thought about it that way before, but makes a lot of sense to me in the moment.

Another new experience that I had is my partner and I went clubbing together for the first time, kind of.

We had a friend who had a birthday and it was her wish to like go out and about downtown doing the whole party scene.

And honestly, our downtown does give just like busy New York vibes.

Like I feel like if you lived there, you could never leave there and you could just like walk to all these different restaurants and coffee shops, there's a little grocery store and you know, tons of stuff to do.

And yeah, you could probably live like the city life in those like few blocks if you really wanted to.

It's not my desire, but it's nice to like experience it for a moment.

My partner and I had gone dancing together, but more my kind of dancing, swing dancing, country dancing.

But we had never gone like clubbing dancing together and it was a really fun time.

And I don't know, we were very much home buddies, so it was a nice switch up to like just be out and about and be social.

And you know, we don't need to do that kind of stuff all the time.

But every once in a while, like I think every six months is a good, good time frame to like hit the town, I guess you could say.

I don't know, I am I am quite young, but that's just like, not my vibe.

I did it as like a college student for a little bit.

It's one of those things that I like wanted to do because I thought it would make me cool.

But when I actually did it, I didn't actually enjoy it.

So I just stopped doing it.

And I started doing things that I do enjoy instead, like going to bed early and crocheting and painting and whatnot and smoking weed instead of drinking because who wants to be hung over?

Like if I want to have a cocktail, like a mocktail is delicious without the pain, without the stomach, blah, blah, blah, blah, you know?

But to each their own, I'm not trying to shame anyone for drinking.

I realize I've talked about me not drinking very much, like two people who drink.

And I just hope I don't come off that way, because I couldn't care less.

And I don't really think poorly of you unless you like can't handle yourself.

And then you probably need some help or something like that, some support and some other way.

But you know, it's totally okay if that is your preferred method of having fun, recreationally and whatnot.

It's just not my cup of tea.

I'll share.

And that's what I've got for life updates today.

I do feel like life has been simultaneously so so busy and not busy at all.

I think that's just because things have like slowed down at work a bit.

I don't know, my mind is always in a state of chaos.

But my days aren't necessarily.

Even my friend that I was just celebrating going out and about downtown is actually one who gave me the deck that I'm using today by Heart and Hands, Tarot.

I also gave her a Tarot deck for her birthday.

I wasn't sure if it like was her vibe, but just like the whole thing, like, I don't know, it's like bad juju or whatever to like buy your own, which like I said, I don't necessarily like fully believe, but I think it is fun to just like make it like a more communal thing.

And I just thought it was very special that she thought of me.

So I wanted to return the favor in case she wanted like that opportunity for herself.

But I also got her kind of a more silly one.

Like it was cat themed.

I thought it was very cute.

She has a cat.

So I hope in my in my mind, I hope that she does tarot readings with her cat the way that that guy on Tik Tok does cards against humanity with his cat.

But you know, I am not it's not my job to dictate how someone uses their gift.

And if she uses that like a spiritual practice that is that's cool.

But I hope she doesn't feel like she's obligated.

I just I don't know.

It's like one of those things where it's like, here's the opportunity to like do spiritual stuff.

Or it can just be like, look at these cool little like artsy cards.

You know what I mean?

Like with tarot, I feel like it only has to be as deep as you make it, you know?

But I'm very excited to be using these cards today.

I used them for like my personal reading earlier.

And it just, it hit, you know?

Like it felt very accurate.

And I do feel like this deck versus the other one is a bit more simple, a bit more to the point, perhaps.

I feel like the guidebook is more obvious, but the art is more interpretive, intuitive, subjective.

And I feel like the other deck is the opposite, where like the guidebook gives you just like so many different options and like keywords and stuff for like the meanings that you know, you can have like a lot of different interpretations, but the card itself is like a little bit more obvious and straightforward.

So it's been really cool working with both of them and just like getting to know like, I don't know, the different vibes, I guess.

And yeah, today's reading with this deck earlier was just a really beautiful one for me.

I feel like this is the deck I kind of turn to whenever I'm just like, okay, what does the universe like have to share with me today?

Where I feel like I turn to the other one where I'm like looking for like something a bit more specific, perhaps.

I don't know.

I guess when I really think about it, it is it is quite interchangeable.

Just my thoughts as I'm having them.

So we're going to do one card today as a little online witchy woo hippie girl community.

Thank you babes for being here for today's tarot reading.

I don't know why I'm feeling serious, but I am.

So I'm just I'm rolling with the vibes.

Today we have the ten of swords reversed.

So if you are not watching this, you are doing the audio only version.

We have ten swords.

A lot of them are all of them, for the most part, are impaling these two hands that are out there.

So there are all these raindrops and kind of like blood drops also perhaps if we're looking at the right side up card, but we did pull the ten of swords reversed.

So let's take a look, see what the universe has to share.

Ten of swords, two hands hang limp, punctured by swords, blood drips from the wounds and rain or tears pour down in the background.

So I did interpret that correctly, perhaps.

This card suggests that you're feeling defeated.

Plans have come to naught, past achievements have been ruined, and your ego has taken a major blow.

The revelation of an error in your thinking may devastate you, and projects may lose meaning and worth.

Don't surrender to negativity, things may look different in time.

Reversed, you begin to recover from what felt like total loss.

In the aftermath of a disaster, a bright side may reveal itself.

You may feel strangely exhilarated or relieved if the worst has already happened.

You have nothing left to fear.

Alternatively, you may feel cautious or anxious about a positive development, waiting on pins and needles for things to take a turn.

Embrace this respite.

I was getting a little nervous there.

I thought that was gonna be a very dark negative reading, but it turns out that the reversed version was actually a little bit more optimistic.

I guess you could say that the original version, I don't know why I innately feel like the reversed ones are more like uh-oh, when?

That's really not the case.

There aren't any cards that are specifically good or specifically bad.

They're all symbolic.

You know, you take what resonates with you, leave what don't, doesn't, leave what doesn't resonate with you.

I'm obviously having some issues with the vocabulary today, being grammatically correct and whatnot.

But thank you for for bearing with me.

I also wanted to share, I don't know why this popped in my head as I was reading the tarot, I did cut my bangs if you happen to be watching the video.

Nothing special.

I'm just proud of myself that they don't look absolutely horrible and that they're like fairly even.

I feel like it looks so much better, especially with the headphones on.

I don't know, my hair is just like too long, too weighted and I feel like this just adds some texture to it, some personality and personally for me, I just feel like the curtain bangs fit me.

And yeah, I usually like to cut my hair around my birthday.

I feel like it's just like a good fresh start, which so like I did cut my bangs.

I didn't want to do like the whole thing in case it didn't turn out well, because I will probably get like a professional haircut in the summer and do like a pretty decent chop whenever it starts getting kind of hot.

But instead of getting my haircut for my birthday this year, I am getting some tattoos.

So just saving up for that first.

I told myself I can cut my own hair, but I cannot give myself a tattoo.

That is, you know, not something I'm willing to risk it for the biscuit on like the hair.

Hair will grow back.

Tattoos I would I would like a professional.

And there's this girl who I've been following for years and years.

And I've watched her grow.

And I've had these ideas for a few years now.

So I'm pretty pretty confident in them.

And I'm really excited to see what we come up with together.

And yeah, I think it'll be fun.

And dad, if you're listening to this, sorry if you're disappointed, but I'm an artist.

I love I love art.

I want to express myself in in my own ways.

So yeah, I grew up quite traditionally, but I don't necessarily have those the same traditional beliefs.

And that's okay.

It's okay to agree to disagree.

And that's all I'm sharing about that for now.

In fact, that's all I'm sharing at all for today's episode.

That's all I've got for you.

Okay, thank you for sticking around for the Tarot Pool.

Just for coming and hanging out, listening to me rant and ramble.

It truly, truly means the world.

I would love it if you could give a little follow, like, subscribe, whatever kind of love you're feeling like given today.

I am ready to accept from you.

And next week, we are going to be celebrating a bigger pagan holiday.

It is definitely going to be the meat and potatoes of the episode, because Easter is coming early this year for the pagans.

And yeah, I'm quite excited for that one.

And we'll also talk about some other miscellaneous fun things per us.

But until then, until next time, bye babes.”